Sigh

I hate how relevant this song is to my life right now....

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
That we ain't talk since we left, it's so over due
It's cold outside but between us

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
[I Hate This Part Right Here Lyrics On http://www.elyricsworld.com/ ]
Everyday, 7 takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you

The world (the world) slows down (slows down)
But my heart beats fast right now
I know (i know) this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

That I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it

I hate this part right here
I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here !!!!

Haven't done this in a while....

After going back and reading my previous posts, I have come to the conclusion that I really only blog when I am really really mad or annoyed about something, when I cannot sleep, or when I am extremely happy about something.

To be honest, I don't feel like I can be 100% honest on this blog. Maybe I should start a new one that no one knows about? I suppose I care too much about the feelings of others. There are a lot of things that annoy be about people that I know would cause some tension in my daily life if those people were to read my blog. I registered for a tumblr which I know none of my friends know about but that site is just too darn hard to navigate! I cannot figure out how the heck to do or find anything!

Well, here I am fitting into one of my three reasons to blog: it's late, I can't sleep and I'm bored. I am sure if I just put down the laptop and laid here in the dark I would fall asleep...eventually. That would be too easy...I would much rather feed my boredom than my sleepiness I guess!

Quite a bit has happened in Catherine-land actually! You are looking at your newest High School Math Teacher!!! Yep, got a job without hardly trying. I really wasn't applying to actually get a job! I just wanted to apply for the experience of applying for a teaching job and (if i got the interview) interview practice. Well, it turns out they really liked me and the rest is history! I wasn't planning to teach this soon but it really just FELL into my lap! I hope I am ready!

This summer, Michael has been in Atlanta while I am in Statesboring. It has been a long stressful summer! I really just want my space heater (aka Michael) to come home! I am glad that he is able to spend some time with his family and make some money..he wouldn't be doing much of either down here in the Boro.

Hulu Plus has finally snaked me in! I am not even sure what parts are exclusive to hulu plus or what parts are for everyone, even non-paying people but I do know that I don't want to find out! I will now be paying $8 a month for a service I am not even sure about what I am getting. I did discover my newest obsession, Modern Family, while browsing through Hulu.

I think I am going to try to post more regularly and for more reasons than just my regular three. We'll see how long that will last!

Ugh STRESS!

I just don't know if I am going to survive these next 3 and a half weeks! Among a couple more tests and finals, I have a 2 huge projects and endless homework! All I want to do is go to sleep and wake up on May 14th!

I am so stressed out but I am trying not to let that stress seep into the only free time I actually have! I want to enjoy my free time not let all the other junk bother me!

Michael is moving back home for the summer :( I am really happy for him because he will be making a lot of money and getting some crucial experience in the "Law" world! On the other hand, I am super sad that we will be living 3 and a half hours away from me for three months! At least he is going to try to visit as much as possible and I will try to go to Atlanta as much as possible too! We do have two vacations to go on together as well.

As of today, I have begun my application to be a math teacher in Bulloch County. I am not sure at what shcool this position is but I think it will be at Statesboro High School. I am worried they will shrug me off because I am not officailly certified.I emailed the person in charge of certification for Bulloch County and hopefully I will hear from her soon!

The stress from school has really put a damper on our relationship but I really thing that we have gotten past all that mess now and we are happy as can be now :) More to come!

Frustration

Today, or this week rather, has been very stressful and frustrating.

Somehow, I have managed to get myself scheduled for a grand total of 49 hours of work. Did I mention that I also have three tests this week on top of actually attending class. Luckily, 8 of those work hours could be used towards studying. If the tutoring center is not busy, then I can do my own work while not tutoring. That is hardly the case. Tonight I have had non stop "customers" thus getting almost nothing done.

One of my tests is done for the week, thankfully, and 27 of my 49 hours of work are done. I am not super concerned about my Econ test tomorrow. Yes, I got a 79 on the first test, but I actually intend to study for this one! It is easy material, just a matter of reviewing. I also have homework due tomorrow that counts for 20 points of my Friday's test. I guess you could say it's a "take-home" test. There are eight problems and I am on number 2. Each one takes about 30 minutes to do...

When I am stressed out, the number one thing that I want to do is sleep. Most people LOSE sleep on finals week--I get the most sleep of my semester that week! I really just want to go home and go to sleep and worry about it in the morning!

That's the stressful part of my life...now for the FRUSTRATING PART.

As any Georgian college student is probably aware, the fate of HOPE Scholarship is a little shaky. The general plan right now is to up the GPA requirements for eligibility. I think that is fair. After all, it is a SCHOLARship. It should be based on merit. Most Georgians have become complacent with the 3.0 and now they are in an uproar that the MERIT is being raised. Maybe people should work harder for their money. I may not like that it is going up, but it is 100% fair.

So I am sitting in the tutoring place minding my own business when I hear one student talking to another saying "well my parents told me that them democrats want to make it so if your parents collectively make over a certain amount then you aren't eligible for HOPE."

SINCE WHEN is HOPE a need-based scholarship. Last I knew, a scholarship was something earned as an achievement, not because you need it. You should HAVE to work for it!

What happens if a student's parents make over set limit but do not support that student at all. What about non-traditional students who are married or are no longer in the care of the parents? Should their merit and hard work be dismissed just because their parents make money, of which the student benefits none?

For example, my dad does not pay my tuition but he makes over the amount that would qualify me for the Pell Grant.

WHATS THE WORST is that this student in the tutoring center was completely agreeing with his parents and when I asked him what those students whose parents make too much but don't offer any money should do, his response was, "tough luck, they can get student loans." Why can't those less merited students get loans? Why should the harder workers and higher achievers have to get loans while those with lower grades and may/may not work hard get the free handouts?

After that, I had to ignore him. I was not about to cause a scene. It was very frustrating.

Maybe my next blog will be a little happier....